Sunday, December 5, 2010
The strongest parasite, resilient, faster reproduction than cancer cells, is an idea. Once formed, it can grow, manifest your brain and change your way of life within a few hours. Inception is the establishment of an activity, or a mindset.
Tracing back the roots to the very beginning when we "officially" met and became friends, it was then I realized that I had planted an idea into her head, that soon infected mine. The idea was simply 3 words: I love you. It all happened before I realized it, soon that simple thought had begun to manifest our minds, changing thoughts into the actual emotion. It was a bliss. Yet life is not like shooting a target, huge turbulence that cannot be imagined can occur.
After 7 days, we had an argument, a rather strange argument, it was on the inception. That idea of loving her just grew too fast and she could not take it. She asked for time, and I gave it. But a few days after, I received a call. That call came with a very important decision that had to be made.. My life was in danger, the company I worked for informed me that the man I had arrested by cracking his alibi and shone light on the impossible crime escaped. But the important part is where he is finding me not to thank me, he was out to kill me.
The report I received was that he had gained intel that I had a weakness, which is my body freezing in fear, the fear of losing someone close to me. After receiving the report, the line went dead. I had to make the decision. To keep her or not. Keeping her would only compromise her safety, losing her would not implicate her.
I had to. She means the world to me, and I couldn't implicate her, so I had to make her lose her feelings for me, play it out so she will not think something is wrong and start to question. During the days, I couldn't send her any messages on the pretext of being angry with her, but the pain was because I had to work, I had to deal with the imminent danger.
When I was finally done and secured safety, it was too late. I couldn't salvage the relationship anymore. My heart felt emptied with disappointment because my feelings held strong. Yet I could not let her know the truth. The truth behind the facade I had created to hide my background, and more importantly, my true feelings. It is too strong for me to hold anymore.
I made an agreement with the boss to let me off and erase my past. That was all possible even though with reluctance considering the contributions I had made. I really want her back, this time I won't allow anymore of my mistakes, I won't let her go. But I have one last assignment to complete....
-Zero (Inception)
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