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Friday, December 10, 2010

Memories of the past... As they get erased, the damage they had done will not. As the case closes, so does the book. Freedom brings joy, but now, I have to make it up to her. The pain I had caused her was great, it is inexcusable. The unsaid things of life are sometimes best left a secret where time will do it's own erasing. Walking away from a life of dread. It is time to find back the path and repair what was damaged. It feels like waking up from a dream, a long dream that was filled with nightmares..... Soon they will no longer haunt as time goes by... It's just like letting all my secrets flow away..............

-Zero (The End)

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Thursday, December 9, 2010

Walking in the rain, I placed my right hand in my blazer to find warmth, my left grasped the hat that shielded my head to keep it from falling as I looked up towards the skyscraper building. Cars passed but none stopped. Perhaps I did not look like a lost child, trying to find my way home. My heart was heavy with regret. Though I had left, the damage it had done to me was great. More importantly what it did to her. Curious stares came and went, but none offered to shelter me to a building. Perhaps my heavy heart could be felt. The tapping sound my shoes made with each step slowed and it seemed as though it too felt the sadness within.

Wishing that the sun will shine, I continued my walk to the subway. A soft whimper was made under the heavy pelts of rain. I made my way to the source. A puppy, it was strange to find one in the streets. I extended my hand, only to have the puppy shrink back in fear, turning my palm, it took a slight sniff and cautiously made it's way towards my legs. Taking off my blazer, I picked it up and wrapped the puppy to give it warmth. "So you're lost too eh.." I whispered to it as it licked me hands in gratitude.

I covered my companions head slightly with my hat, continuing our walk, I looked at it straight in the eye and said, "Let's find our way back together"

-Zero (Lost Souls)

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Wednesday, December 8, 2010

The last assignment is coming to a close. The man had been tracked down, but the charges he has is something which brings doubt to me. It feels as though the charge is just a cover-up. Now all that's left is for me to trace his sources and close the file. This time, for good.

-Zero (The Last Assignment)

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Sunday, December 5, 2010

The strongest parasite, resilient, faster reproduction than cancer cells, is an idea. Once formed, it can grow, manifest your brain and change your way of life within a few hours. Inception is the establishment of an activity, or a mindset.

Tracing back the roots to the very beginning when we "officially" met and became friends, it was then I realized that I had planted an idea into her head, that soon infected mine. The idea was simply 3 words: I love you. It all happened before I realized it, soon that simple thought had begun to manifest our minds, changing thoughts into the actual emotion. It was a bliss. Yet life is not like shooting a target, huge turbulence that cannot be imagined can occur.

After 7 days, we had an argument, a rather strange argument, it was on the inception. That idea of loving her just grew too fast and she could not take it. She asked for time, and I gave it. But a few days after, I received a call. That call came with a very important decision that had to be made.. My life was in danger, the company I worked for informed me that the man I had arrested by cracking his alibi and shone light on the impossible crime escaped. But the important part is where he is finding me not to thank me, he was out to kill me.

The report I received was that he had gained intel that I had a weakness, which is my body freezing in fear, the fear of losing someone close to me. After receiving the report, the line went dead. I had to make the decision. To keep her or not. Keeping her would only compromise her safety, losing her would not implicate her.

I had to. She means the world to me, and I couldn't implicate her, so I had to make her lose her feelings for me, play it out so she will not think something is wrong and start to question. During the days, I couldn't send her any messages on the pretext of being angry with her, but the pain was because I had to work, I had to deal with the imminent danger.

When I was finally done and secured safety, it was too late. I couldn't salvage the relationship anymore. My heart felt emptied with disappointment because my feelings held strong. Yet I could not let her know the truth. The truth behind the facade I had created to hide my background, and more importantly, my true feelings. It is too strong for me to hold anymore.

I made an agreement with the boss to let me off and erase my past. That was all possible even though with reluctance considering the contributions I had made. I really want her back, this time I won't allow anymore of my mistakes, I won't let her go. But I have one last assignment to complete....

-Zero (Inception)

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